When you have an abandonment core wound, there’s a deep fear of loss that will underlay anything that requires a commitment from you. Abandonment is the fear that you’ll lose whatever or whoever you commit to, so rather than committing, you’ll have think, “why bother?” You’ll basically stop before you even start.
Generally speaking, an inability to take responsibility stems from a history of suppressing blame, shame, guilt and anger from experiences where you felt out of control, victimized and/or bullied. These often stem in childhood where emotionally unavailable parents tend to cross boundaries (because they can) without taking your personal needs, wants and feelings into account. As a result, you never learn to develop healthy boundaries, but rather learn how to suppress your own needs in order to make your behavior more acceptable and desirable to those around you. You quickly learn what makes others feel comfortable and you adapt your behavior to accommodate their needs above your own.
Something that helped me to process this persistent feeling of “I don’t know what I want” is a series of journaling prompts that came to me in meditation. Go through the prompts one question at a time without reading the entire post in advance. Don’t skip ahead because your mind may want to contrive an answer in advance.
A core wound may begin in a past lifetime or if may be a past event in this lifetime. Either way, the past is the past and when a core wound is present, it means that the core center of your being is operating from a place of wounding, rather than love.
Before your Soul incarnated, it was asked to choose your parents and your major life experiences. These choices were based on karma from your previous lifetimes and the lessons you need to learn in this lifetime. The reason you learn lessons is to move you closer to Enlightenment each lifetime.
In the last month, I removed this massive energy block from my life that changed things for the better in every single way. You may be wondering how an energy block could actually change someone's life. I know I did when I first started doing this work.
Atlantis’ destruction happened so quickly that there was no way for family members to reunite before everything was destroyed. It left those that perished feeling abandoned by those that were there to keep them safe, like their parents, for instance. They often died with an overwhelming sense of fear, sadness and loneliness. These emotions have translated in this lifetime to anger, distance and isolation which are all based on the fear of losing everything and everyone that you love.
Last week, I wrote about one of the two core wounds that you’ll resonate with if you’re from Atlantis. I wanted to expand on this topic because it’s important to share that this type of core wound is far-reaching and likely affecting multiple areas of your life. It’s not isolated, it’s part of your identity and if not addressed, it will leave you feeling like you’re running through an exit-less hamster wheel.